If you’ve seen Shawshank Redemption, you’ll remember the scene where the old man, Brooks, can’t handle being out of prison, and commits suicide.
I see it all the time — with happiness. I see people who are afraid to be happy, because…what then? They’d have to move forward, make new goals, let go…
I’ve told you everything already and you agreed. And we decided that one day we’d be a team in some far off city on some far off day. But these last weeks with no communication, not a word, not a hello, nothing, have me thinking again. I don’t matter to you, not the way you matter to me. And the sad part about all this isn’t so much that you don’t seem to care, as much as that it’s taken me this long to really understand it…
So I bid you a good morning.
And a good bye.
The Avengers’ Day Off by Illustration A Day
(Source: 1000pigeons, via wattlebirdblog)
Is it weird that I’m more honest with you all than I am with the people I deal with face to face?
all god damned adorable and bouncy.
What we do at pier one
(Source: oldriverside, via petit-poids)
1. I haven’t been writing at all much recently. I’ve been thinking about writing a lot though. You could fill volumes with the things I’ve thought about writing in the last few weeks, which is a shame seeing as I haven’t even filled a scrap of paper with a cohesive thought.
2. I’ve been kind of romantically lonely lately but I don’t feel like going “out there” and actually dating someone. I would rather like to skip to that secondary beginning part of dating where you know where you stand but things are still new and fun and you don’t feel like murdering them.
3. Everything I own is currently covered in cat hair to the point that I’m not sure how or where to start cleaning it all.
4. I went to my tattoo guy last weekend and brought him some pictures from Sandman. We talked about what I want and all of that. So far, it will be Dream, Death, Delirium, and Matthew. I’m very excited but still have to wait until the end of the month. Back piece is FINALLY happening.
5. I’m not sure when it happened, but Portland became my happy place. I know that changing locations won’t fix all my problems, but several of my problems are based on my current location. I’ll find myself annoyed with work and remind myself that this time next year, I’ll be giving them notice and packing my shit. Can’t think of a good bar? Know where has good bars?? And young people?? AND PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION?? Thats right. Oregon.
6. If any of you are interested in that whole ‘helping each other stay motivated to exercise’ thing, find me on Kik: Stella.bee
